The Christian Noob (n00b)

born & raised Catholic, now going to a Presbyterian church & still learning

afraid not to go to church one Sunday

Sometimes I wonder if it’d be too much of a big deal if I don’t go to church one Sunday (considered a mortal sin in the Catholic church and tradition — an idea not highly promoted in the Protestant Church). Well on my own accord, aside from breaking my personal record of 87 weeks straight going to church (FAPC;, I might feel that I could start skipping more Sundays perhaps much more often to the point where I might stop going all together. It’s happened before and I’ve ended up not going to church for almost 13 years. I’m afraid to once again falling into a vicious cycle of going to church Sunday after Sunday and then disappearing for years at a time.

For the time being, I don’t have any valid excuse (definitely no reason at all) to stop. I’d continue going to church — specifically FAPC ( where I feel most comfortable.

Now I must admit that I’m not sure if the increasing number of weeks that I’ve gone to FAPC ( feeds my ego or nourishes my soul. All I know is that I want to continue going to church at least once a week. Said the latter, at times I’ve gone to church three to four times in the same week as a personal need to get something. It used to be shelter, a way to hide from the world and from myself, a way to find God.

Nowadays what’s that need and why do I have it? Could it be that I’ve found God and now I’m not too desperate to continue looking for him? Could it be that once again I’m losing my faith? Am I being truthful to myself and to God worshiping every Sunday and/or spending many hours in church (8:45am to about 2:00pm almost every Sunday, excluding summer time)?


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