The Christian Noob (n00b)

born & raised Catholic, now going to a Presbyterian church & still learning

my lack of faith & my mental disease

Can it be that the problem with my lack of faith is really my defective brain? Maybe I think so much that I believe too little. Maybe I’m too stupid to have this illogical faith. Then again perhaps I’m too smart to believe in God enough.

In all, it’s the constant battle between my brain and my soul, the demons in my head killing the angel that I might have been as a child (if ever), in other words the clash between good and evil in me. This just drives me crazy having two opposites in me killing each other every day. Sometimes there seems to be a truce and feel at peace, but this is rare.

Sometimes people ask if there’s a Heaven or if there’s a God. I’ve lived and felt the horror of hell in my flesh and mind. Hence I’m sure there’s a God — the Lord, His Word and His Kingdom. Nonetheless knowing that there’s a God in Heaven doesn’t mean I’ve got enough faith.

Maybe I know too much for my own good. Of course, I might just too little that I’m blinded. How could I even think about leading ( I might just be to stupid to think so.


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