rants: worth protesting
After almost two years and a half going to a Protestant church, I can see myself as a Protestant or merely protesting (complaining, whining, criticizing, etc) about the different areas that I’ve disagreed with and/or questioned about Catholic Church and its traditions. Said the latter, I’m no theologian, but I’ve got to learn and prove within and/or for myself. Being sort of a Protestant seems to be the only way right now for me to get closer to God (if at all). Then again, as much as I want to be a good Christian, I admit that part of me died inside me long ago. I question myself if I truly have some sort of faith. At times, I feel as I’ve got no soul. Could it be that my soul finally escaped leaving my husk behind? If so, why do I keep trying to be a good person? Time will only tell.