as music saved my soul: NWOBHM
This past Friday in the afternoon, I was listening to some music heavily influenced by NWOBHM (early 1980’s) — like Iron Maiden, Motörhead, Raven and even Venom. It brings me some good memories (friends, alcohol, etc). Being almost forty might make others calmer and mellow (soft), but this isn’t my case. I was a rocker then and still am. Heavy metal helped me survive my darkest hours (reference to Magadeth) and as the perfect drug (cheap reference to Nine Inch Nails) during my painful high school years. Thinking about the pain back then, now that I understand about mental disease, I can see that I was surrounded by clueless idiots — teachers, psychologists and other so-called experts. Back then, I already had ADD, OCD and BPD. I could’ve even been diagnosed with Aspergers or any other reason (excuse) for being so awkward in all school related situations in general including me trying to get good grades. In all, right now, I want to listen to some newer material like The Birthday Massacre, Xandria and The Crüxshadows. Of course, I must stop thinking about (living in) this godless past! So sod it all and just rock on!